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When we think back on March of last year lots of things come to mind. One of the most powerful symbols, outside of a lifetime of toilet paper anxiety, will be hand sanitizer.

We got this jug delivered a year ago. At the time I wasn’t sure how long it would carry us. So I bought materials to make disinfecting sprays for various surfaces and things we’d use around and in the house as well.

We were lucky.

Today, the jug is tapped. A symbol of the last year. And symbolic timing for it to run out.

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful we got our hands on this and … we got this on our hands. We lugged this thing everywhere and even left it out for delivery folks, neighbors, you name it.

Maybe it was crazy. Maybe it was a momentary respite for folks who came across it.

This empty container is a badge, the emptiness took effort, took work, took consistency. Took effort.

We earned the nothingness in the bottle over the course of the past year.

Which is also why I took great pleasure in smashing it. Cleaning it. Smashing it. And tossing it. There was pleasure when my foot landed on the center of the bottle and stayed and pressed and stood firml until it was near flat.

I smiled.

Good f*cking riddance.

And then I turned. With the next moment. Turned.

And went to the basement and got the other gallon I purchased a year ago.

Because it’s not just a symbol of what’s passed, it is a symbol of what fight and vigilance still remains.

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Dose 2 for me wasn’t terrible. We all react differently.

A few things that may have helped were:

1) Timing – I targeted mine for 11am, so the 12 hours until side effects typically hit happened when I was sleeping.

2) Be Tired – I worked until 11:15pm the night before and by the time I got to bed it was 1am. I was up at 630-ish so I was light on sleep by my new lifestyle going into the day.

3) Be Active – I got in 10 miles on my treadmill. Which meant my body was ready for rest.

4) Be Creative – I took a half dose of zzzzquil at 7pm and the other half at 2am.I made sleep irresistible.

At night I had soreness, aches, fever, sweats, chills, but I also couldn’t resist sleeping through most of it.

And I woke up feeling normal except for some grogginess from the meds and my arm.

Hope that helps you all.For being on the other side of this round of doses (we know we’re getting more right?)

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful

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Got dose 2. The folks at East Brunswick Community arts Center are amazingly efficient. #iamgrateful and #iamthankful for them. (Coffee!)

And for this vaccine. And for what COVID forced me to learn more about and pay more attention to.

3 Hours: Arm starting to feel a little sore.

9 Hours: Arm a little sore. Still nbd.

10.5 Hours: Sore arm. Chills.

12 Hours: Sore arm. Full body aches. Fever. Breaking sweats every 30-45 minutes. Uncomfortable but just like the start of the flu.

15.5 Hours: Sore arm. Full body aches. No fever. Can’t sleep. Want to. Reading instead. 🙂

17.5 Hours: Sore arm. Mild aches. No fever or anything else.

23 Hours: Sore arm.

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Mom is 2 weeks post second dose. Mom and kids took full advantage yesterday.

They literally, leaned in.

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful for the opportunity.

I shared this in a comment below but just sharing this made me think: it’s amazing how adjusted and acclimated we’ve become to COVID protocols.

It only became apparent yesterday. When we saw some normalcy returning. Like hugs.

Our instincts were to distance, mask, etc.

We had to actively focus on giving hugs, breaking instincts, to take advantage of being around mom post vaccine.

It’s a powerful reminder of the impact the past year has had on our kids. 20-25% of Jaanu’s life has been behind COVID protocols. 1/3-1/2 of his conscious life.

It’s like me having lived this way for almost 25 years, or everything post college.

I’m floored by this reality they have.

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We’re not looking at the most important health statistic when it comes to vaccines

.(Quick Pause: I recommend signing up to some amazing newsletters. VoxCare gives a great perspective on where we are with the vaccine.)

Today they sent out the best summary I’ve read about vaccinations, specifically about each company’s vaccine and the impact on efficacy vs perhaps the more critical, serious illness and death.

In summary, efficacy is what was easiest to test for immediately in a controlled way (did people who were vaccinated get COVID-19).

But as time has lapsed, we’re now seeing that regardless of efficacy, all vacciness appear to do an excellent job of protecting against serious illness and death — meaning, as of now, any vaccine you get appears to help you not get COVID-19 (from 65-95% of the time) and if you do get it, will make it easier to weather, less painful to tolerate, and ultimately help you avoid death.

Which…is like the Flu (though with greater efficacy than recent flu vaccines).

There’s a great thread on varints; and the discussion around AstraZeneca’s vaccine and how South Africa and the UK have taken different stances on the vaccine (SA stopped using it, UK continues to) brings the debate about efficacy vs severe illness and death to life while also introducing a topic for a different day: variants.

The most powerful chart is one from Dr Ashish K Jha who I’m sure you’ve seen on TV in the past months; where he lays out the power of the vaccines.


#iamgrateful and #iamthankful for people like Kelsey Piper at Vox for this kind of writing and framing. I’m not savvy on the healthcare side but clear writing like this brought to life with simple data and live examples to help contextualize and make sense of what matters is hugely important. I feel smarter every time I read this newsletter.

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Anaiya’s class, for their holiday party, did a few things: made a pipe cleaner and beaded snowflake, played Mad Libs with Frosty the Snowman, welcomed a new classmate before he formally joined.

And time permitting, each 1st grader got an envelope, addressed and stamped, with a coloring page of a medical staff member or administrator. Each kid was asked to color it, write some notes on it, and send drop it in their mailbox.

Anaiya did that today with gusto and then some. She even let me color a few parts (the heart, the sleeves, the shoes, one pant leg — after she drew on pockets that were missing because per her absolute insistence, doctors need pockets!)

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The coloring is perfect. Every color for a reason. Then the messages scattered around the paper celebrating their awesomeness.

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And clarity on the envelope. Who it’s from. Who it’s for.

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful that even on such a simple exercise Anaiya leaned in. She wanted to make this beautiful. And when I even told her she could wrap up for the next activity, well, she wouldn’t have it.

“I have to put my name everywhere so they know who is saying thank you. I want them to know I think they’re awesome.”

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That’s it. That’s all. That’s the post.

My daughter. Saying thanks. Spreading love. Signing ‘graphs.(All while educating me on a My Little Pony soundtrack. Rainbow Rocks is a solid soundtrack and Shine Like Rainbows deserves a f*cking Grammy already.)

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After being up until 5am on work and life; up at 7am with flower shaped cranberry muffins. Pancakes. Oven baked fried chicken. Homemade disinfecting cleaner. Homemade foaming hand soap. And a splurge on basement and backyard play equipment that should delight the kids and help them through; help them navigate through, all of this. Full house cleaned. A work proposal and a creative piece of content out tomorrow morning faster than I’ve ever seen this stuff turned before. And ready with a schedule and incentives to exercise for the first time in 5 weeks starting tomorrow. Tonight, wrapped up by 830pm.

But the highlight was this scavenger hunt we put together. The kids worked together. Each solved 3 clues. It was fun. And great to see them troubleshoot together.

Going to finish my scheduled work, grab a beer, and should be asleep by midnight. For the night. #iamgrateful and #iamthankful I wanted to make today great and I think we pulled it off. You don’t always have good days so celebrate them when you do. Document them so you remember they’re possible.

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Every morning for drop off we start with Anaiya who has a drive thru drop off. We pull up, the teachers take Anaiya out, and we drive off to drop Jaanu off. Kudos to Campbell/Moss PTO and Moss School for making this happen by the way — it’s magic.

For the 10 or so minutes while we’re waiting in line for drop off, we have a karaoke/dance party in the car. Anaiya usually requests Frozen. Jaanu always requests whatever Anaiya just played.

I’ll try to insert something. To mix it up. Build a bridge to some musical taste beyond soundtracks to animated films. Pop. Safe Hip Hop. Who knows. Nothing sticks more than a day; and we’re back to Disney.

Well. Except this week. Jaanu lets Anaiya have her Frozen 2 soundtrack. She gets out of the car. And floating, rising, arcing over the headrest from the back seat, landing in my ear and settling deep in the most important place in my soul, I hear Jaanu utter the following words:

“Buhboo, can you play Prince?”

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful for what sticks. There is a park that is known … Paisley Park is in your heart. And I think, now it’s in his. Amen to my life’s greatest work.

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