FORKS UP or CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE, MASA

The most prominent single moment of the pandemic for me will be hearing from my cousins and my Masi, the woman who outside of my mom, defined mom for me since birth, that my Masa was sick, being put into comfort care, and then, died. A year ago today.

Masa was always around but also, never in the way. It’s amazing. He made his way to India for my fathers death, he was in San Francisco when my Fua died. He found his way to so many places while always finding his way out of the way.

Which is why his service is so memorable to me; because he found a way to get us all together as a family, a few times, while also not “being in the way” — no burdens.

When someone dies, I promised myself when I was a little kid — we all make these promises to ourselves as kids and as kids most of them are forgotten in seconds but this one, stuck with me — to carry a part of that person forward (the first person I remember losing to death was my Kaka, and I was so young, I remember mostly the dope blue bike he gave me and the fact that he’d promised his car to my sisters when they were of age, so I tried to do those two things, give gifts and save cars).

For Masa, I am trying to remember how in the chaos of the world he made sure to create cocoons and safe spaces for the kids. When the noise and chaos of families tried to swallow everyone and migrate left, Masa grabbed some kids and took a walk heading right.

#iamgrateful and #iamthsnkful for that lesson, Masa.

I am still haunted by how I haven’t given my Masi, Chanda, Oowaj, Megan, Miles and baby to be a hug yet; that’s just on pause as you all are the first trip we make when trip making becomes a thing again.

Forks up, y’all. Forks up.

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FORKS UP or CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE, MASA

The most prominent single moment of the pandemic for me will be hearing from my cousins and my Masi, the woman who outside of my mom, defined mom for me since birth, that my Masa was sick, being put into comfort care, and then, died. A year ago today.

Masa was always around but also, never in the way. It’s amazing. He made his way to India for my fathers death, he was in San Francisco when my Fua died. He found his way to so many places while always finding his way out of the way.

Which is why his service is so memorable to me; because he found a way to get us all together as a family, a few times, while also not “being in the way” — no burdens.

When someone dies, I promised myself when I was a little kid — we all make these promises to ourselves as kids and as kids most of them are forgotten in seconds but this one, stuck with me — to carry a part of that person forward (the first person I remember losing to death was my Kaka, and I was so young, I remember mostly the dope blue bike he gave me and the fact that he’d promised his car to my sisters when they were of age, so I tried to do those two things, give gifts and save cars).

For Masa, I am trying to remember how in the chaos of the world he made sure to create cocoons and safe spaces for the kids. When the noise and chaos of families tried to swallow everyone and migrate left, Masa grabbed some kids and took a walk heading right.

#iamgrateful and #iamthsnkful for that lesson, Masa.

I am still haunted by how I haven’t given my Masi, Chanda, Oowaj, Megan, Miles and baby to be a hug yet; that’s just on pause as you all are the first trip we make when trip making becomes a thing again.

Forks up, y’all. Forks up.

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SYMBOLS, SYMBOLIC or “WHERE CAN WE GET HAND SANITIZER”:

When we think back on March of last year lots of things come to mind. One of the most powerful symbols, outside of a lifetime of toilet paper anxiety, will be hand sanitizer.

We got this jug delivered a year ago. At the time I wasn’t sure how long it would carry us. So I bought materials to make disinfecting sprays for various surfaces and things we’d use around and in the house as well.

We were lucky.

Today, the jug is tapped. A symbol of the last year. And symbolic timing for it to run out.

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful we got our hands on this and … we got this on our hands. We lugged this thing everywhere and even left it out for delivery folks, neighbors, you name it.

Maybe it was crazy. Maybe it was a momentary respite for folks who came across it.

This empty container is a badge, the emptiness took effort, took work, took consistency. Took effort.

We earned the nothingness in the bottle over the course of the past year.

Which is also why I took great pleasure in smashing it. Cleaning it. Smashing it. And tossing it. There was pleasure when my foot landed on the center of the bottle and stayed and pressed and stood firml until it was near flat.

I smiled.

Good f*cking riddance.

And then I turned. With the next moment. Turned.

And went to the basement and got the other gallon I purchased a year ago.

Because it’s not just a symbol of what’s passed, it is a symbol of what fight and vigilance still remains.

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COMICS ON A KINDLE or A PERFECT EXPERIENCE

I just read the second to last of Ta-Nehisi Coates Black Panther run … on the kindle app on my phone … and it was a great way to read.

They have an experience where if you double tap the page, it zooms in on one frame on the page and then as you navigate, instead of turning full pages you move to the next frame. You get to switch from portrait to landscape to optimize the view for that frame and it’s seamless.

This approach also eliminates noise. I have ADHD when I read comics. I’m sometimes so curious about the next frame or page I can’t concentrate. This helps me focus and therefore go deep on details.

Man. What a dope way to read a comic book! #iamgrateful and #iamthankful I gave it a shot! So much fun and I may explore more comics this way. (Note: I was a HUGE comic book collector in elementary as school.)

Here are some screenshots so you can see how the images flow.

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WORKING OUTSIDE or PORCH LIFE

Weather today looks great. Windy but wonderful. I’ll be working outside today and I’m blissful. I didn’t get a lot of these days last year for all the reasons we all know. I’m excited to get some of this time in today. For our porch and some new porch furniture, #iamgrateful and #iamthankful.

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LFG or MY FILIPINO SQUAD REPRESENT

Nothing else to say but LFG!

Also, I love how much of my world converges around PHL now, mostly between work and mangoes.

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful for all of it. #jollibee

https://ny.eater.com/2021/3/26/22350459/jollibee-times-square-location-new-york-opening?fbclid=IwAR3ZyAea638oiwNC7F5KoUdYecm0nHieClekwh1Mv1PbYOv1MkYWht4N_rI

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WORKING OUTSIDE or PORCH LIFE

Westher today looks great. Windy but wonderful. I’ll be working outside today and I’m blissful. I didn’t get a lot of these days last year for all the reasons we all know. I’m excited to get some of this time in today. For our porch and some new porch furniture, #iamgrateful and #iamthankful.

About 45 minutes after posting this, my hernia became incarcerated; I spent 3 hours in agony working through work meetings hunched over, sweating, periodically vomiting; and then 4.5 hours in the ER. So … yeah, I didn’t quite get to work outside. 🙂

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DOSE 2 or MAKE SLEEP IRRESISTIBLE

Dose 2 for me wasn’t terrible. We all react differently.

A few things that may have helped were:

1) Timing – I targeted mine for 11am, so the 12 hours until side effects typically hit happened when I was sleeping.

2) Be Tired – I worked until 11:15pm the night before and by the time I got to bed it was 1am. I was up at 630-ish so I was light on sleep by my new lifestyle going into the day.

3) Be Active – I got in 10 miles on my treadmill. Which meant my body was ready for rest.

4) Be Creative – I took a half dose of zzzzquil at 7pm and the other half at 2am.I made sleep irresistible.

At night I had soreness, aches, fever, sweats, chills, but I also couldn’t resist sleeping through most of it.

And I woke up feeling normal except for some grogginess from the meds and my arm.

Hope that helps you all.For being on the other side of this round of doses (we know we’re getting more right?)

#iamgrateful and #iamthankful

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DOSE 2 DONE or CLOSER TO POST-COVID NORMS

Got dose 2. The folks at East Brunswick Community arts Center are amazingly efficient. #iamgrateful and #iamthankful for them. (Coffee!)

And for this vaccine. And for what COVID forced me to learn more about and pay more attention to.

3 Hours: Arm starting to feel a little sore.

9 Hours: Arm a little sore. Still nbd.

10.5 Hours: Sore arm. Chills.

12 Hours: Sore arm. Full body aches. Fever. Breaking sweats every 30-45 minutes. Uncomfortable but just like the start of the flu.

15.5 Hours: Sore arm. Full body aches. No fever. Can’t sleep. Want to. Reading instead. 🙂

17.5 Hours: Sore arm. Mild aches. No fever or anything else.

23 Hours: Sore arm.

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PUPS or LOVE

Not much to say about this one except there’s a happy close to the story and the love of a great dog for which #iamgrateful and #iamthankful

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